2009年4月29日星期三

九州志

从凤凰回来这么多天,转眼校庆已过五一在即,欢欢乐乐的骑车在学校里面来来去去,天气真好啊。
昨天夜里跑步的时候顺便看到八卦一则。虽然我老是在各个角落里发现此人的八卦,还是专业的咳嗽一声从容跑过。今天早上打开电脑又看到大家在围观土木系学生会部长集体发情,某李小朋友的校内状态赫然成为军乐卦协讨论版,这个世界真是欢乐啊。
今天的主要内容。关于亲爱的九州。九州志第二季第一辑终于出现,和老吴毫不犹豫的各买一本带回建馆来。话说我和老吴同学,总是不小心买同样的书,非常不可持续发展。回来翻到江南的《葵花白发抄》,题目赫然让我想起高中时Ash喜爱的《百鬼夜行抄》。当年的Ash就坐在床头啃着苹果一页一页翻看《百鬼夜行抄》,我们在百无聊赖的讲着各种各样的事情,重庆常见的阴天里白白的漫射光照进寝室里有模糊的影,实在是单纯并且无聊的一段时光啊。
《葵花白发抄》讲了一个间谍和碟中谍的故事。这个故事发生在大胤王朝两百年的时候,彼时辰月教是国教(狗血啊,辰月竟然可以是国教)。最后的结果跟我预期的一样,花魁和情报头其实是夫妻。四个少年少女被当作了牺牲品为了以为的理想失去生命。故事这么阴郁,一点都不热血,真不符合我现在欢乐的心境。据说江南的缥缈录大坑已经填完,还是等单行本好了。到底喜欢九州什么呢?一个从来没有接触的九州的人最初迈进这个庞大的世界会迷失的吧。作为九州的铁杆粉丝有时候会觉得很骄傲呢,有买过第一本九州哦,虽然当时是帮同学买的。到现在,已经是习惯了吧。比如面前有人对我说,铁甲依然在。。我会不会毫不犹豫的冒出一句,依然在,呢。
最近真是幸福啊。以至于常常会傻乐。还是正常一点好。

2009年4月11日星期六

夜饮

和朋友一起出去喝酒,安慰她受伤的心灵。其实受伤大半是借口,本意还是未经世事的小女生想要品尝下烈酒的味道。呵,伤口固然深重,又哪里是酒精可以治愈的。
一路上絮絮叨叨说了很多,失去和固执,背离和放弃,酒精催化下话就多了起来。我们好像互相依靠的浮萍,离了对方,再到哪里去找一个如此深刻了解自己的人呢?
可是朋友呢,总是过路客。千里宴席,总有散开的时候。总要自己珍惜自己,懂得把自己缩在安全的壳里才能把可能的伤害降到最低的程度。
也许是和某人接触多了,自己也渐渐冷血起来,没心没肺不知道疼痛的样子,既懂得安慰人,也懂得不带真心。这也证明了,可以依靠的人,肯拿出真心来对待的人,挺少的,如果有幸遇到一个,就要好好珍惜

2009年4月5日星期日

踏青

四月的午后不要错过,春光明媚说的大概就是这个时节。于是,在清明的假期里,与好友一起,去了樱花盛开的玉渊潭。早听说樱花节里的玉渊潭人山人海人比花多,去了之后发觉前人诚不欺我。
这个春天的玉渊潭,长满了树冠形状优美的配景树。环绕扁扁的玉渊潭连起清新绿色的一道线。看到树冠背后城市里排列整齐的楼宇,终于开始体悟身为城市居民对开阔空间和绿地的渴望。
玉渊潭公园里的樱花区只在西北一侧,看到的樱花大概有许多种,一概认不出来。许多人拉着花枝照相,还有许多穿和服的小女孩。一阵风吹过的时候樱花花瓣也会漫天飞舞,真是让人欢乐的景象。潭里的水映着周围的绿树,在风里泛起涟漪,有许多游船飘在水面上。排队的人过多,于是我们约了下次一起去北海划船。一路看到绿树粉花小花小草,咬着糖葫芦吃着烤串聊着天慢悠悠闲逛的时候,总是忍不住惊喜连连,气氛过high。和贾说着小朋友听不懂的话,嘲笑学弟的低智商跟低情商,穿着和服摆出lesbian的假象,多欢乐啊。欢乐到现在都还是会笑起来。
春天已经到啦,夏天还会远吗。似乎已经觉得触到夏天里清凉又热烈的气息了。天空碧蓝的北京,总觉得空气干燥,透明,没有压力,是疏朗大气的城市。夏天会怎样呢。抓也抓不住的时光,即将开始的怀念和离别,和成为回忆的现在。南方城市的夏天,闷热的空气里有湿气在积聚,那时候,你在哪呢。

2009年4月2日星期四

安全感

据说
睡觉时蜷成一团的人明显缺乏安全感。
无论睡着或醒着习惯抱着什么东西的人也很缺乏安全感。
手常常握成拳攥的紧紧的人缺乏安全感。
恋物癖的人缺乏安全感。
时常缅怀过去的人对现在缺乏安全感。
对于季节变化敏感的人缺乏安全感。
焦虑的人缺乏安全感。
总是希望别人给予帮助的人缺乏安全感。
爱炫耀的人缺乏安全感。
衣服没有口袋的时候不知道手往哪里放的人缺乏安全感。
喜欢看电影的人也可能缺乏安全感。
怕黑的人缺乏安全感。

虽然大部分都不关我事,总结起来大概还是逃不掉严重缺乏安全感的状了。跑去跟哥说自己要继续学跆拳道,这样会安全感多一点——即便只多一丁点。

这时候我的非常安宁非常稳定的基督徒哥哥说:
你心里不平安,怎样都不会觉得安全的。

似乎很有道理。于是我问:那要怎样才能心里平安呢?

哥半天不说话,最后说,你信教吧。

相信有一个神在注视自己,会觉得自己的所有卑微琐碎的事情都变得重要起来了吧。在别人的目光下会想要做的更好些,是每个人都会有的心理啊。神存在的意义,是不是就是让蝼蚁般的凡人认为自己很重要呢?

如果肯认真的研究一下关于宗教的信息,以双子的飘忽不定不小心陷进去也大有可能,毕竟信仰带来的稳定状态有无与伦比的吸引力。不过嘛,做一个一直缺乏安全感的人也不错,每个人都过自己的一生吧,——不同于其他人的,琐碎平淡的一生。总要有一些特别的地方别扭的地方才有趣味啊。

2009年4月1日星期三

Your April Horoscope by Susan Miller

Gemini (May 21 - June 20)

Gemini Horoscope for April 2009

By Susan Miller

April will be a big month for your career. Mars is still brilliantly lighting your tenth sector of fame and honors (tenth house), a wonderful situation that began last month on March 15 and that continues now. You will have until April 22 to make your mark, for after that, energetic Mars will move on to light another part of your chart. It'll be easy to get addicted to all the career activity and warmth of Mars, but don't take him for granted - you'll find it easier to make progress now than at any other time in 2009. Give career projects and goals all you've got while the Sun shines for you.

If you want a new job, you need to be out planting seeds. If you enjoy the job you have, you have a superb chance for a promotion or to see fulfillment on a project you've been working on over a long period. If you have your own business, you may want to launch a publicity or advertising campaign, as your timing would be right and you'd see results. You may also bring in a major piece of new business now, so concentrate on pitching! Remember, you will have Mars at your side only until April 22.

Venus, the planet of art, beauty, and financial gains, has been in retrograde since March 6, so an out-of-phase Venus has probably depressed your profits if you are self-employed. If you work for others, Venus in weak mode made it hard for you to negotiate for a better salary. The good news is that Venus will turn direct on April 17, and from then on it will be easier for you to see a rise in income. Venus will turn direct on April 17, 2009, and stay strong for the coming 18 months. Very soon you should be looking at a stronger, brighter financial picture.

If you write for a living or work in a creative field, the move of Venus to direct speed will help you work more effectively, without the fits and starts you've had to contend with up until now. Collaborations of all kinds should go better, too.

Actually, a very special creative project seems to be coming to a conclusion on or near the full moon, April 9 (plus four days). This project may involve graphics or words, or both. For example, you may be ready to ship a finished manuscript for a book, screenplay, or an important presentation or report. You may be ready to unveil a new website or blog, or you may have a fully edited TV pilot to show a client.

No matter what you seem to be finishing, your project or launch may be produced for, or in tandem with, persons based in a foreign country. Indeed, due to the position of Jupiter, your work could have strong application to a global market. You may see your words translated into one or more languages, which is always exciting. Something related to your talent with communication arts seems to be reaching fullness. Keep in mind that thinking globally is the right idea in 2009 and may save the day when things in your own country don't seem to bring the opportunities you had hoped to see.

Are you in college and about to get your advanced degree? If so, you may now be ready to send in your final thesis. If you are a college professor, you may be putting the final touches on a new syllabus for a class you'll offer next semester. These are a few examples, but you get the idea - you can see a finish to a project or goal involving higher education or study.

More fun seems to be on the agenda, too. Your social life could be moving into high gear during the week of April 9, for this full moon will fall in your fifth house of true love. No matter what your social status - single, dating, or in an established relationship - you will likely have a sweet romantic episode to enjoy at this full moon. Keep watch not only on April 9, but also over Friday night, April 10, and the ensuing weekend, April 11-12. All full moons have an area of influence of four days on either side of the date it appears, and this one should be quite delicious.

Something involving your closest romantic relationship appears to be coming to culmination, and it looks like you'll be enthusiastic about what it will be - this should be one very bright romantic or social event of the year. This full moon will reach out to Jupiter and Neptune, creating a very lyrical, poetic, and graceful outcome. There is a sense of ease at this full moon that will be rare and special.

This would be an ideal time - near April 9 - to take a vacation. Attached? You'll have a chance to lavish time on your one-and-only, which should be fun. Considering how strong your career demands have been, your partner will appreciate having your full attention. If you are single but not dating, you may meet someone new on your trip or on the public conveyance you take on the way. Attending a seminar or trade show in a distant city could be a good way to meet people from your industry. You'd have a lot in common - so mix and mingle!

If you were born on or within five days of June 11, no matter what you experience over this full moon, April 9, it's going to be good, and you will benefit most from all that occurs.

Your most romantic dates this month will be: April 3, 4, 9-11, 17-19, 21, and 24.

Your career will bring a mammoth surprise on April 15 because of a coming conjunction of Mars and Uranus. Brace yourself for any type of news. When Uranus is involved, you never know what to expect, for it is the planet of out-of-the-blue events - you could receive news that seems strange or completely unexpected.

Those Gemini born on or within four days of June 14 will feel this aspect most. (Gemini born in May or in very early June may not feel it much at all, unless another planet is being touched.) I feel we rarely have to plan for good news, but you would have to watch for a shocking or unusual incident. Keep alert, don't take anything for granted, and don't rattle any cages. This is a time to lie low. Keep your ears open and don't provoke an angry response from an authority figure.

If you play your cards right, you can ride through any jarring event. In fact, you may see a complete turnaround a few days later. (Or, it may be that other career news, completely unrelated to the topic that comes up April 15, will be so strong that it works to counter your worries of what happens April 15.)

I say this because on Tuesday, April 21, Venus and Mars will meet at the very top of your chart, creating very favorable buzz about your work. This will be a four-star day for an interview, presentation, or other career-related activity where being accepted or perceived as popular would be important. Venus and Mars in your reputation sector will give you a certain sparkle or sex appeal that will be undeniable. If you are an actor, stand-up comic, or musician, for instance, this would be a dazzling day for an audition or special first-time performance.

Financially, you will do well with creative projects and side jobs, and through a commission, royalty, or other chunk of cash you may receive on April 10 and/or April 23. The latter date rates a gold star, for the Sun and Pluto will be beautifully oriented. On either day, you may get very good news that will help you stabilize your cash flow, which is always good news!

As you can see, this month is strongly woven with all kinds of career news. To balance this, you'll need some fun time to see friends and relax, in addition to the romantic episode that is due over the full moon period April 9. Happily, the universe agrees and will provide you with the rest you need.

Once Mars enters Aries on April 22, the heavy emphasis on work and career will simmer down, and from then on, you'll have more time for friends, fun, and events. Mars will stay in your eleventh house, the area of hopes and wishes, friendships, and fun through May 31, and that'll be more than enough time to loosen up and rejuvenate your batteries. While the time near the full moon April 9, plus or minus four days, will be great for a quick vacation, you'll have a longer phase to book yours, anytime from April 22 to May 31. Actually, May might be your best option for reasons I will discuss later.

At month's end, the new moon, April 24, will be a time to think about what you'd like to happen in the coming months. Astrology is not destiny but best used for planning, and this new moon is one that will help you set up your priorities. Have you outgrown your old goals, or have you achieved them? No matter what your situation, it's a good time to review all the things you would love to see happen in 2009. If you are no longer excited about a goal as you get closer to grasping it, you can always change or refine it. This would be the right time.

This new moon will be useful in another way, and that is to help you overcome a fear that has been holding you back, or a habit that you'd like to end. Even if you have been disappointed in the past, you can meet this challenge now. If you feel you need a coach or other professional to help you, you can find the help you need now. With a beautiful beam to Saturn in the fourth house of "the end of all matters," you have a superb chance of concluding this habit or fear once and for all. Pluto will also be helpful - great news - for Pluto can do what many other planets cannot, and that is completely transform stagnating situations.

Quite coincidentally, on this same day as the new moon, April 24, Mercury will send a friendly beam to Uranus. This is sure to bring happy news, as Mercury is your ruling planet - your guardian! It is possible that a situation that has been completely hidden from view for some time will suddenly come to light. Or, that a confidential talk you have concerning your career brings really good news. It's a superb day - you should be feeling great.

Travel is also a happy possibility that day, April 24, and if so, it would happen suddenly and go exceptionally well. Any sort of communication or travel on this day (or within one day plus or minus) would bring good news. Also, news you get from people at a distance should be quite exciting. If you need to brainstorm for new ideas for a creative project, you'll have the opportunity, for your mind will crackle with exciting potential.

Keep in mind that April will be your productive month, but in May you will be redoing projects and contending with delays. Mercury will retrograde from May 7 to 30 in your sign of Gemini, so you will probably feel this retrograde more directly than most Mercury retrograde periods. This is why I said earlier that you may want to take your vacation next month, in May, a better option, for at that time you wouldn't miss any earth-shattering news going on back at the office. (As mentioned, the time near the full moon April 9 would also be perfect for a quick, fun trip. The period in late April and May would allow for more time to go.)

Next month will not be the time to launch new ventures, seal new relationships, or buy anything expensive. This month will allow you to be far more productive than May. If you can't get things settled in April, then if possible, table things for June. That will be your birthday month, so at that time you'll have special favor from the Sun. It'll be worth waiting for better days, if possible.

So as you see, you need to make hay in April, for May will be a month when the pace of life will be slower. You have a highly productive month for career progress (April 1-22) and for fun and love (April 9, and after April 22). In some ways, you have it all. Just tip toe around people, or hide, near April 15, and you should be fine. Remember - April 22 plus or minus one day will be your day to shine professionally!

Summary

This will be a powerful month for your career. With Mars backing your every effort to get ahead until April 22, you would be wise to focus intently on creating a victory from a current project. You may get outstanding publicity for work well done, or you may now launch an advertising or self-promotion campaign that gets people talking about your good work. If you need a new job, line up interviews quickly, and if you work for others, see about whether you can take on more responsibility and power where you are now. If self-employed, you can more easily bring in new business.

Romance seems to be on the agenda over the full moon, April 9, or at the very least, you will have plenty to celebrate. You seem to be with many other people on this date, so perhaps you'll be going to a wedding or party, a theme park, or even a baseball game. Whatever it is, it'll be fun.

After April 22, you will go into a quieter, more internal phase. It's an ideal time to think about the coming 12-18 months and decide what you'd like to achieve personally and professionally in that time. It's also a good time to decide what you don't want to bring with you into your near future. Is there a habit you'd like to quit? Is there a bad relationship that is thwarting you? This new moon on April 24 will help you make room for all the new experiences, relationships, and opportunities that may be coming in your new birthday year. Once you create space, the universe will have a place to put all your goodies.

Coincidentally, on the same day as the new moon, April 24, there is another lovely aspect, Mercury in fine, supportive angle to Uranus, just made for cooking up new ideas, good news, or spontaneous travel.

One day could prove to be either outstandingly positive or very troubling: when Uranus meets up with Mars on April 15. You may have a strong disagreement with your boss or hear news you'd never expect. You'll be feeling more emotional on this day, and quite impulsive, too. Events will fall to the extreme end of the positive-negative spectrum. You won't have to brace for good news, but you would need to brace for bad. As a precaution, lie low, keep thoughts to yourself, and see what happens.

Sometimes energy zings into your opposite house of the chart, so rather than have your career bring unanticipated news, you may instead be focused on your physical home, real estate, or a family member, most likely a parent. Keep your schedule light and your wits about you.

Just a few days later, April 21, things will go very well professionally when you may score another career victory or find a way to smooth over any problems of April 15. Either way, April 21 plus or minus one day should be a favorite career day of the month.

Dates to Note:

News from a distance is positive: April 3-4.

Expect a major romantic development: April 9, plus or minus four days. No matter what your status, it should be a fun, loving time.

A long trip taken the week of April 6-12 would be divine. International developments also glitter.

A creative or writing project may reach culmination: April 9-13.

Watch your career for off-the-grid news - something you'd never expect in a million years: April 15 plus two days on either side. Could be breathtakingly good or not-at-all good. Keep your antenna up. Watch as well for developments at home, with real estate, or in regard to a parent.

Profits should improve after Venus turns direct on April 17. Venus will stay strong from this moment on.

Watch for an approval for cash - or the actual check to arrive - on April 23, or the runner up day, April 10. Money would not arrive through salary increases but through a side job or a one-time payment of cash that comes from an outside source of pay.

Just a few days later, you can generate lots of positive buzz about your work and reputation, thanks to Venus and Mars: April 21.

Your social life will reach a much faster tempo once Mars enters your eleventh house, from April 22 to May 31.

After the new moon, April 24, spend a little time thinking about what you'd like to achieve during the coming birthday year ahead. It's a good time to think about improving your health and mental well-being, including deleting a bad habit.

Also on the same day as the new moon, April 24, Mercury and Uranus will set up a superb time for communicating, travel, and creativity. Brainstorm, get in touch with someone, and anticipate the best when you look at your email!

Most romantic dates: April 3, 4, 9-11, 17-19, 21, and 24.